| what is happening to the world that i live in? i really do not know at all. life seems to be taking its toll on me knce more. pastor ryan foo shared with us during youth service today that we all go thru lives' mountains and valleys. which i actually believe that i am now in the so-called valley. i know, i should not dwell in it, and pity me, pity me and such. but why God? why? i know i am NOT supposed to question why i am not given the life of a princess. i know, it's not up to me whether i should be given what i want. instead, i should be given what it's good for me. well, i guess i just have to wait till my journey opens up wide, and i know which path i should take. mom and dad are quarreling downstairs. which is not a good sign at all. mother's day has just passed. well, it's like 1 hour and 29 minutes past mother's day. sigh. i wonder what had happened. suddenly i hear people screaming downstairs, went downstairs, saw em snapping at one another, then decided to hide all the remote controls before going back upstairs. i don't think i'll get into trouble because i did not do anything which angered my mother. i think. *flashbacks...nope, i don't think so* i gave my parents each an angpau today. rm100 each. which leaves me VERY broke indeed. but i don't mind. i'm alrite with it. funny, because sometimes, when they make me pay for something ( for instance clothes from MNG =P, handphones etc), i'll probably go back home with a sour taste in my mouth. maybe it's because pastor ryan said something meaningful today.money never lasts long enough, or even run enough to cover up my expenses. money is forever in need. but maybe i'm feeling like a filial child today so i didn't really feel much i guess. but then again, i woul dfeel really guilty at times for hiding the BIG secrets from my parents. nope, they don't know a thing bout any of my relationship(s) yet. no, i don't realy think it's the right time or maybe the right person to bring home yet. maybe it's because so far they haven't seen a guy which they think, i repeat, they think, is on par with me. when i was with ken sim, they rejected him because they think he's a failure. well, i don't think so even until today. it was only my parents' opinions. oh well, then when hing came into my life, i though you know, everything seemed to be almost perfect. because he knows how to treat me like a princess, well, at times. hehe. but even for my parents, they don't think he's good enough. though hing scored perfectly in his STPM, well, he did have 3As and 1A- which sums up to 4 As. while i on the other side, only scored 3A-s. so therefore, i've alwyas though well, i need a guy who is smarter than i am, and has perfect EQ. and hing has!! you wouldn't believe that such guy still existx. he doesn't, well, almost never, blown his temper at me before! can you imagine how high his EQ is? ehehe. *i love you!!* my parents are getting to know him better, so i really hope that they will, hopefully, give me the green light. 
well, it's about time to really spend some time alone, as in really quiet down and read my Bible. jun jet seemed to be struggling with something as well, i'm gonna pray for him later. cheer up jet, things will be alrite soon.  gotta believe that you're gonna be out from the deep valley soon. speaking of valleys, ipoh is located in the kinta valley rite? no wonder.. |
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